wait.

"God's best is always going to be worth waiting for."
this is a quote i heard in a faithwalkers east teaching by george sebek "while i'm waiting" online last night.

i struggle with the temptation to force things to happen, take them into my own hands. i have such a silly mindset that i KNOW what i want. honestly? i have no idea though. it's such a problem in my life. waiting is the most testing and trying thing we can go through sometimes. i want God's ways...but i don't want to wait for them.

i learned that waiting is training. it teaches me faith, perseverence, persistence.
i can't give up on God. even when i'm waiting for things in my life.
the Bible mentions this so much. SO MUCH. we are told to wait.

MY LIFE CANNOT BE IN MY HANDS AND GOD'S HANDS AS WELL.
i'm learning that God has GOOD REASON to make me wait. can i trust that? i have to.
why would God make things difficult for me for no reason? He LOVES me. unconditionally. He wants my best. He ONLY does good things. what a beautiful promise.

i want to completely trust in God's heart. He is so good. in every situation, i want to learn to let go and trust God. He has a different perspective than i do. LUCKILY, He's God and i'm not!

i'm trying to learn to TRUST GOD'S TIMING. God is never in a hurry. Jesus had so much to accomplish in His 3 short years of ministry, but you never see Him in a hurry. He was calm, at peace, but PURPOSEFUL. i want to be like Him. patient, and trusting like that. God sees all of history simultaneously, let that be enough to trust in!

if God were to give me everything i asked for RIGHT AWAY, it would probably destroy me. it's silly that i want God's blessing, but i don't want to wait. waiting simply means i have to trust God knows what He's doing and when He wants to do it.

these are super jumbled thoughts...but it's what is hitting my heart, thanks to all i'm learning. i decided that it's okay to wait. i can do this. God is testing my heart, and He will use these delays in life to refine my integrity. they are SOVEREIGNLY designed by God to build my character, so i can be spiritually mature. God is so good, in every trial, He is with us, and He is growing us.

"BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD." -God. :) what a beautiful thing it is, TRULY, to wait for blessings from God, and things we think we want.